As I go about my day, I think about all the things I want to share with the world. Once I get the chance to sit in front of my computer (without working), I am suddenly overwhelmed by all of the possibilities of what I could write from all I’ve seen. Enough! I am just going to let that one go (whew) and start posting whatever comes to mind while writing… let us hope this will be better for our brains eh?
Here we go. Since my first post, a ton has happened. I’ve overcome fears in work, I’ve seen friends from home, I’ve had some “interesting” couchsurfing experiences, met angels, learned to play by myself, and of course had some intense life realizations.
You know when you tell someone something and he or she doesn’t listen to you, then they hear the same advice from someone else and it hits them like lighting and their whole life changes? Yes it’s annoying, but it happens to everyone and we shouldn’t take it personally if it’s not our time for someone to be impacted by the profound words that we called our own first. I had my moment of clarity this week when so much of what I’ve heard over and over again started to finally click.
For example, I’ve realized this week that the part of my job that I don’t particularly love is only temporary, and by working slowly I’m just extending the period of struggle and pain. I have to get through this past of it as fast as possible; work hard now in order to get to the part of work that I really love. I’ve been afraid to work fast because I don’t want to give up my whole life in pursuit of something I fear so much, but I now see that it’s going to be so much easier once I face the fear and only do what I’m afraid of for a little while. Who knows, I may even enjoy it later once I’m used to hearing “no” so many times. Ideas along this line have been told to me seriously my whole life and I’m just now getting it? Jeez, I hope I don’t have to move halfway across the world every time I need to be taught a lesson I already know.
I’ve also learned what it means to “be genuine” in our work. Each person has to be authentic in their methods of working, and he or she shouldn’t have to be put in a box called “this is what works”. If everyone stayed in that box then innovation would never happen and we wouldn’t be challenged to find new and better ways to do things. What works for me may not work for the next person. I went to an event that was stellar – it was in a penthouse and was packed full with beautiful people drinking champagne and cheering about how much they loved our business. I was a little uncomfortable and did not fit in at all; it just wasn’t me. It was stellar for that crowd but I can’t carry around high-heels in my backpack and I’d rather climb a mountain than take an elevator that high up. It works for them, and their energy was infectious! But could I pull off an event like that? No way. People wouldn’t feel like I was genuine! So, find what works for you and do it a lot. A lot a lot.
As one who is used to planning ahead, this trip has been a crash course in “winging it”. So far it’s been… okay; the world hasn’t come crashing down yet so that is good. I am cheating a little though, I plan about a week ahead with the events that I want to go to, then just go with the flow the rest of the time! I find that if I don’t plan anything I end up not doing anything – just wondering what to do and where to go wasting heaps of time. Loosely planning has been nice, it gives me the structure I crave without limiting the opportunity of wherever I am.
I think one of the keys to life is learning to enjoy spending time alone. Ha, well lucky me, I get a lot of time to practice this right now. It’s been crazy meeting so many people every day, but every once in a while I get a bit lonely once I’m back on my own after events. Sometimes I worry that I let my happiness rely on people too much, but I’m learning that most people feel that way too. Looking back on the past month, some of the best moments were me by myself enjoying this new life. People watching in Trafalgar Square, handstands in Battersea Park, listening to audio-books while getting lost on foot, and reading outside in the crisp mornings are some of the most refreshing experiences thus far. I really hope I can take this back with me and never stop striving to hang out with myself more.
It’s been really nice to see some familiar souls from back home. It can be so wonderful sometimes to just be able to talk about familiar topics and the past rather than having to explain your backstory whenever meeting someone new. I really do miss my friends and family and I’m trying to not be embarrassed of that, but I don’t really miss the location of home. People make a home, not four walls (although I’ve had some wonderful four walls to call home in the past few years). I do appreciate the place called home so much more though. I see so many things differently than I did before I left. Some experiences seemed boring or like a burden, but now I see them as opportunities filled with potential joy. We always tell ourselves to enjoy the little things, but we oversee them a lot. Being away from everything has revealed so much to be grateful for that I wasn’t noticing. Honestly, I was becoming resentful of Reno and work and having been in the same place for so long but that was such a waste of energy! I got to do some really great things with some really great people and I hope they know how much I appreciate it all now. So sorry for the belated gratitude.
This is a different experience than a lot of other types of travels. People who see the world are opened to new perspective, but we don’t always understand that everyone’s experiences are different. Studying aboad is much different than backpacking Europe. Backpacking is much different than living out of hostels looking for a job. Looking for a job is different than coming with a job and not having a clue how to build in a new market. We are all going to have different journeys and should respect that of each other. It’s all different. We also shouldn’t put travel in the same category of type of experience. “I want to travel the world” is too broad a statement. How do you want to travel the world?
On This New Life:
On this journey I’ve found that it’s okay to just sit in a spot for a few minutes and watch what happens around me. It’s actually acceptable to do this wherever you are, surprise surprise, but for some reason we get too wrapped up in going from place A to B that we don’t experience what happens on the way there. You have to be careful not to sit for too long though, because you will soon attract the wrong people (the stragglers, the friendly-but-lonelies, the crazies, and the a little too aggressives).
Being present is the secret. By living in the past or future we don’t notice the boys wearing their school uniform jackets with shorts and cleats on running to school. We don’t see the grandmother in the park fawning over the little gift of a granddaughter. We have to breathe in every moment as it comes and appreciate the turning leaves and folks around us. I’ve seen so many people in love and I don’t know if it’s just my mind driving me crazy or if I am just being opened to the fact that the world is a beautiful place built on human connections (and the desire to be wanted and needed).
When we are open to new possibilities, we are definitely given them! I have been asking to be put in front of the people I need to know and it has been totally mind-blowing. I walked into my hostel room to a guy doing yoga and we started chatting about personal growth and goals and he sent me some of the best advice and information – thanks Owen! I was so lucky to come across such great Couchsurfers in London and find such a friendly group at Hillsong. I’ve been guided to the best Meetup groups for my interests and have been meeting like-minded people that push me to be better. Ah, it’s all working out so well. There really are angels on earth.
Until the next time my brain needs to be dumped,